To whom it may concern...

I recently turned 30.
A  girl can't hit a mark like that without getting a little introspective.
Not a girl like me.
I began taking note of myself.
And before I knew it, I had made a list
Because I haven't changed much

1.  I still toss words around all day before I set them down
2. I still think comfort means my dads old clothes
3. I still get caught up in tiny details to procrastinate what I fear about the big picture
4. I still think that love is big and wonderful and magic. But it can't be your whole world
5. I still want to perfect everything immediately and feel like a failure when I can't
6. I still love to end on an even number

But there's a a lot that's new

1. I call myself a writer out loud 
2. I'm on a new coast, in a wonderland far from home
3. I am in love
4. I have lost my security blanket "Everything will be better once I move to California"
5. Every day I care less and less about what others think about me
6. I value balance in all things

I have been thinking a lot about clothes lately. 

How does a former emo girl age gracefully?

How does she honor her inner hellions desire to remain a non-conformist while trying to pick out something flattering?

How does she deal with 30?

Same way she rallies to go out when her inner grandma wants to stay in.

With red lipstick.